When I reflect at my past, I been captive of Satan 😈and  I had two

two forces in me. My 😇 angel part and self 😡 evil part.

I learned self 😡defense  and ignored  My😇 part.

I  am self😡aware and start self purification process. During this process old Self😡 died and I has birth of new self👼 reliving my new  pure past that will  be foundation of my heavenly future. This process is very very hard and is very very rewarding 🌈💰

Every 😇Saint has a past.😡

Devil 😈 has a past 😇

😈 has perfect past can trick Saint 😇  because  of sinful past  and turn into sinner😡

Some Saints 😇 can relapse  due to defective past and turn into a sinner 😡 again  because of  defective past😡

Dismantling the past and reliving  👼saintly past 😇   will  be the foundation to transformed  to   true saint With wings  🦋and  have the ability to build a heavenly future🌹💐🎉

once upon a time there was poor righteous man🕵️‍♀️

He worked very hard to take care of his family  and help everyone and  at  the   end of the day prayed  for every one including the devil 😈  sick 😷 and evil 😡 people.

when he died  he saw  devil 😈 sitting with next  to  GOD.  He 🕵️‍♀️was happy  that GOD  forgave devil 😈 and thanked GOD to accept his prayers 🙏🏼🙏🏼

Devil  stood up and bow down to that man and said “ I was wrong  GOD was right humans are better than me.

GOD forgave him and gave his old job  back he lost his horns and got his wings back  and everyone live happily ever after.

THE    NEW   BEGINNING 🎉💐🌹

PS     Any  human  can  be  that   man, we all  have  that  choice.

Every human 😩👨‍🎓😀😄👨‍🎓👩‍🎓👩‍🏫👨👨🏿‍🏫🤓😜remind me of the invisible CREATOR.

I 🤔want to know the CREATOR and explain to me what I do not understand.

Looking into the mirror , I realized  that I do not understand myself , and do not  know my purpose.🤔

I 🧐reflected  and realized I  only useing  tiny fraction of my abilities.

I have to fix the damage I caused to myself  and others.

I start understanding but I know I have long way to go to be what GOD  want me to be.

I request everyone to pray 🙏🏼for me  I  can  use all the prayers I can get and thank you all in advance  and I am doing like wise🙏🏼

While  growing  up  I  learned  self defense  and  practiced  it in

all aspects of  my life  and   was  very  successful.

When I  become Physician  I had  hard time  having  empathy  for  my patients

While in a medical conference   Speaker refer to  a Jesus   quote  Physician thy  heel  self.

I question to myself  Do I  have a  sick self?

I  recognized  my  sickness  and  named  at Lucifer  syndrome.

I  start  treating  myself and  to my  surprise  I  end up  learning  from  my patients ,

They   helped   me   to become  more   and more  aware of my sick self.

I realized  SELF  was  beast  within  me, get into  conflicts with others and  I  end  up  being  hurt.

I  start taming  my  BEAST  and  turn into  watch  dog.

Now  I  realize    how true  Jesus  was. I can only heel myself , any  may help  patients as  they helped me

to become aware,  but  they  are  the one  who  will heel  themselves.

I  am  a  convict   and  I am a  lifer.

When  I  was  arrested I knew that  I  was  innocent.

I knew  I  had not done anything wrong   It  was  rescue  from  my past to  start a new life.

Prison was  the  only place  I   was  able  to  reflect.

I  keep  reflecting     and  keep  reading   every book  I get my hands on.

I  discovered that my past  was  boot  camp and  it  is  over.

Present  is  to  test myself if I have  learned  enough to start a new life.

In my past I  did  good things and  bad things.

I always  had a valid reason  to  do  so.

In prison  I  discovered myself.

I  was my  worst  enemy and  I  was  unaware,  live  was a living hell  but I  did  not knew any better

I  become  my  best friend and life is a honeymoon

I am aware

Everyone  is  serving   their  purpose.

I  must   love myself  and  others   and learn

from myself  and  others.

Now I  have  true peace with myself and  love  everyone.

My past  there was darkness in me ,  and  present   I  see  the  the light  with in.

This  prison  is  my  paradise.

A poor man asked Moses, I never had a decent meal all my life.

Ask GOD to give my the food once instead of giving daily.

GOD gave him all the food the same day.

That man invited every poor man in the city for a great feast
and himself eat as much as his heart desired.

Next day he started digging his grave knowing sooner or later he will die
and he does want to a burden on others for his burial.

To his surprise he discovered a treasure and live happily there after feeding poor
every day.

Moral of the story More charity more come back multiple time. Charity is the best buisness

Sufferings makes human reflect.
Suffering cause self reflection.
Self aware humans find GOD.
GOD grant them FAITH.
GOD turns their fears into PURE FAITH.
They welcome sufferings like gifts.
The more they suffer , stronger trheir FAITH become.
Those people live heavenly life.
There is no such thing as unnecessary sufferings.
If I disagree with this statement I must have a defective FAITH.
Without FAITH life is suffering.

I  can   see  with  my  eyes and  I  can  feel  with my  heart.

What I see  matches  what  I feel and  my  tongue  only  expresses

the  truth.

Then  my  heart  will see  and  my  eye   will feel.

I will  have  peace  with  myself and live in  peace  with everyone.